Thursday, December 1, 2011

The Journey

“..Neeyati, I always wanted to come to this place with you. I knew you would love this place” he told her. Abheet was probably the only person who knew Neeyati too well. At time she would check twice if he had some super natural powers to read her mind but no Abheet was perfectly normal.
Abheet has always had this thing about him. He was always very sure of what he was doing, he always knew the perfect plan, the perfect place for them to go, the perfect destination for a drive, and he knew it all. Abheet had an aura that said a lot about him, he was quit but when he spoke his words made sense. He was the kinds who never share never speak about their feelings not even to the one they adore or to put it in other words, whom they fall for. He had his own ways to make Neeyati special and care for her.
Neeyati was the one who was hopelessly romantic. She adored Abheet. Her days ended with Abheet being the last thing on her mind and started with a smile and the sole reason being Abheet.  Neeyati always knew what Abheet never told her. She knew how to read between the lines that he spoke. She knew he cared in his own amazing ways. She would secretly blush when he says something nice. He was the sole reason that kept her faith on a wishing star alive.
It had been a while since they went out or even met. Abheet had a very busy schedule his work always kept him busy. Once in office Abheet was in a different world a different person. Neeyati respected this gesture; she knew how much his dreams meant to him. So, that day Abheet finally had time and they made a plan for a drive. Of course it was Abheet’s idea of where they will go. He told Neeyati it was a surprise for her and he was sure she would love it.
Neeyati was excited as they were meeting after a very long time and will finally spend some quality time together; rather the much needed quality time. He came to pick her up at their usual point. It started to drizzle, as always. It rained whenever they met. Some kind of trademark it had become. She walked towards his car he started the engine, they saw each other smiled. The smiles they both loved. Abheet loved the way she smiled and for Neeyati his smile lit up thousand bulbs in her heart.
Cutting through the heavy city traffic they were on the highway. She was sitting right beside him careless, relaxed, content and happy. She was complete. They didn’t speak for around 15-20 mins. The silence was always very comfortable between them, they heard each other loud and heard things which words can’t even begin to describe. They never needed words for silence was the other name to Abheet and with him she learned the art too. Wo Lamhe by Jal was playing in the background. They both knew what it was all about as they say when words fail one thing that comes to express the inexpressible is music.
Finally Neeyati broke the silence. She was not the quit types. She loved talking to him, telling him random things and all the things she could think of. He loved listening to her, watching her change thousand expressions in a minute. He always wondered if that was technically even possible; but then to him she wasn’t human she was a creature from another planet.
When they were near the place where Abheet was taking her, she started becoming quit and was just mesmerized by the beauty she saw around her. She was smiling ear to ear. Abheet’s purpose was served. They both loved nature and the beautiful scenery caught Neeyati’s attention. When they finally reached and his car stopped Neeyati couldn’t stop but smile and she looked at Abheet with those big twinkling eyes and the smile he had brought her there for. He was relieved.
She got out of the car and was enjoying every bit of that place. The place was silent, it was the perfect weather they both had the perfect companion. She hopped from one place to another he watched her.  She looked at Abheet and asked him “how did you know I would love this place? This place is so beautiful why didn’t u bring me here before and how come you never told me about this place?”
Abheet kept looking at her and wondering how come she speaks so fast and does she manages those expressions. After a long pause he told her “Neeyati I saw this place some 3 years back and the moment I came here I knew you would love this place. I always wanted to be here with you and spend time.” She knew what he said was true. Abheet always meant each word he said and they meant everything to her.
This happened some three years back. They both still have the hangover not that they didn’t meet after that but that day it was something magical. They stood right beside each other, looking in one direction letting silence do the talking. Silence was the medium that made them say a lot and hear a lot. In silence they heard which could never be put into words.

(mood: happy..blissful)

Monday, October 3, 2011

The Coffee- Part ll


.. Naseen was happy beyond words could even begin to describe. She was the queen and the whole world was at her feet. She needed nothing else; she knew no one in this world could take away her happiness away from her now. Aarit saw the look in her eyes. For him that was the only thing that he longed for. Nothing was more eloquent then silence between them. At that moment they let their eyes do the talking and they hugged and it was the same. The rain was the same. Happy, content, full of joy and love they started to move towards the car that was parked across the road.

It was still raining he jogged towards the car she stood there. Letting the rain drops take over her; her arms spread wide letting the rain grip her and the happiness on the face that could match no other expression. She was calm she was complete and so was Aarit. Seeing Naseen he was mesmerized again; he was always amazed by the beauty of her innocence and simplicity. Naseen always left him spell bound and he always surrendered to her.

He looked at her and Naseen put her hand forward and with that smile on her face asked him to come and enjoy the rain. It was their rain; the rain of their love. He got out of the car and stood there looking at her. She started walking towards him, her destiny; the present life gave to her. The only thing that kept her wishing on the wishing star was now her reality. Aarit was the only person Naseen wanted for life. Her life was just a few feet away from her. She was smiling as she was walking towards him. Her fairly tale was about to begin where she will be the Queen and Aarit will be her King.

He walked few steps to come closer to her as she was reaching him with the love that would last a lifetime. The glow on their faces was enough to light the whole city. She smiled and blushed pinker than the roses. He took her hand slid down the big shiny stone to the finger that went straight to her heart as he whispered “I will never leave you alone I love you”.  They had no family to call their own but now no one mattered. They needed no one. They hugged they were complete they were happy and they were in love.

Their heartbeats were the lyrics, the sound of rain was the music and then there was the sound of someone hitting the breaks strongly and the glass broke. It went through his head and he was on the road and there she was lying in the pool of color red beside him...Like always right beside him. Fingers entwined together as he was never supposed to leave her.

She screamed and Aarit held her close. Her heart was beating loud enough for Aarit to hear it in the silent night. She was trembling and sweating she was shocked. She looked at Aarit and the fear in her eyes was visible and Aarit was worried. She held her close kissed her forehead and said “don’t worry sweetheart, it was just a bad dream I am here for with you forever; don’t worry I am here I will never leave you alone, I love you”. She slept like a child in his arms and he slept while admiring his love his sleeping beauty.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

The Coffee..


Rain, the season most people relate with love, romance, smiles and longing. Naseen and Aarit were no less. Like everyone else, she wanted him to be with her and he always wanted to hold her close.  Each rain had its special feel to them; the rain was their expression of what they feel for each other. Only the single thought of rain brought smile to them. Their memories, their thoughts for each other, the times when she looked at him secretly thinking he would not know and the times he adored her smile her innocence thinking she doesn’t know, but both of them knew.
 Naseen, as her name suggests was a cool breeze with life and energy, her laughter made people smile, her beauty was flawless just as an angel with big almond shaped brown eye. Naseen was a girl who loved love but knew where the reality hit. With Aarit around her she was a child with uncontrollable laughter and the sparkle in the eye. Aarit was the perfect guy for any girl, he was handsome with a cute rabbit smile that made many girls go weak on their knees but the one girl who made him forget everything was Naseen. Aarit lived a materialistic life he was practical strong and very determined. And as they say opposites attract however here they fell in love.
That day it was raining again, but something was not the same the rain seemed dry that day. He was driving and there she sat beside him just like she always was...right beside him.  Looking at the rain drops on the window glass she was lost, wo bheege pal from manorama six feet under played in the background giving words to their thoughts. He looked at her when he stopped at a red light he said to himself “what an angel she is, I know what she is thinking about I know what is bothering her, I can’t live without that smile”, others honked, the signal was green. The car stopped, they were there Café Coffee Day, the place where they always met and talked and perhaps the place they found love.
He turned off the ignition and was looking at her; Naseen still lost in thoughts did notice they were there. His hands touched hers and she hit reality again rather, to put it in her words, she always felt alive when he touched her so she was alive again. She never wanted to reach here today. She knew it was for no good. She wished inside for it to be a dream and she will soon wake up. But as she stepped out of the car and rain drops touched her cheeks she knew it was real. They went inside together, she was behind him looking at him from the side above his shoulder “this is the only guy I can ever love, I know what his eyes say I know what is going on in his mind I know he loves me” she thought.
They sat at the same place, it was the same music, the same person took their order, the same order as ever hers extra sweet his extra strong. But still something didn’t feel right to her, she was uneasy and he sensed it. Although she always felt and he always sensed but that is how they complimented each other. Words had lost their power; they were nothing more than noise for them. He stood up took her hand and asked her to get up so that they can leave, she was stunned and looked at him with the innocence that killed him; she had no clue why he was doing this.
He took her hand and she kept following and then she finally spoke “Aarit, do you really want to do this? Nobody is forcing you don’t be under any pressure and you can take your time.” He turned and looked at her with look in the eyes that said it all. He then stopped and put his hand on her shoulder and said “Naseen, you know that I love you then how does it matter if the time now is right or not; we anyways have to decide about it so why not now. I know how important it is for you and for that one smile I can do this.”

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Raat...

iss raat ke andhere ke peche hai kai pal pighalte se..
haar baat pe hai kai raaz khulte se..
inn kale pardo ke peche se hai koi roshni si chillati..
bahar ane ko..bas tuttke bikhar jane ko hai jhatpatatti..
haar saas ke sath ek naya jeevan hai panapta..
uss ahaat me ek naya saaz hai dulhan sa sajta..
han zinda hun main aaj..yahi rahunga main aaj..
aaj ke andheere me maine khud ko hai paya..
kal ka suraj chahe ab main na bhi dekh paya..
tere hone se khush hun main ki tu hai kahi..
bas ek tera sath hai jo yahi nahi..yahi nahi..

(Mood: Profound, sad, dark.. Time: 1:08 am Sept 11, 2011)



Saturday, September 3, 2011

(content canot be typed :P ) i cant find any title for it!! :) its beyond words!!


“...Sometimes even the best of equations needs to be thought over, and which is perfectly fine...Some things need serious thoughts. Though if shared these thoughts might just loose the whole essence they have... But when both people know what the other person is thinking and the amount of effort the amount of don’t know what is put into the thought process just to come to one conclusion cant it be discussed between the two people... will it not bring out better result a better brain storm a better outcome... “
These are the few questions that, at some point of time, have crossed everyone’s mind. In some way or the other we all go through the same things. Only the gravity being different and the after effects varying in degrees. For some to say everything is all that matters on the other hand for some only actions can speak louder than words. But can the other person hear the screams of the actions? Can the hidden love the hidden effort be read with those naked eyes? Well, for me it will be a no! Until and unless you can’t understand the moment of thoughts in that person’s mind one can never read the efforts...one can never hear the screams.
 They say a picture is worth a thousand words!! Does that hold true for everything that happens in this world? I mean, if I end up making a dancing lady will people think I was in a mode to dance? Or as a matter of fact will they think I was happy when I painted it? Well, yes they will think so! That’s what they are supposed to think when they see someone dancing right! But them there will be that one person who will read the eyes, who will see the tremble of your hands, who will read what never came out of those lips! The person will know you weren’t happy...you were just letting the storm of thoughts out of your mind...the dance was a mere reflection of the turmoil inside your mind!!
We all have this one person with us in one way or other! We only lack the eye to know who that one person actually is. We run for things that are not meant  to be ours...we run for people who just doesn’t care...but we will never value that one person who after all our errors after all our faults, crimes, stupidities, crack mindedness  stays there and watch us fall and see us rise again! And we will be angry on that person for why couldn’t he just save me from falling? And we will forget that there must be thousand times when we let them down!! Made them feel worse...but still they were never angry with us...not even a single time!!
So, people just find who that one person is and value them!! That one person doesn’t necessarily have to be your beloved, your sister, your brother...just leave those clichés behind and don’t hide it... it could simply be your friend...I mean come on its just can’t be your beloved with whom you love talking to? It could be other person!! I have that one special person in my life!! And I am thankful to who so ever exists for having him and I value my possession!! We all are lucky it’s just that we, humans, can never have enough.
P.S: I really don't have any idea why I wrote all of it but it really means a lot! “YOU” mean a lot to me!! J J

(mood: remembrance.. :( :| :) :D..Time: 1:57 am 4th sept 2011)

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Bondh koi...


Kuch tha usme bachpan sa...
Kuch thi masumiyat subha ki oss si...
Kuch tha usme chan chanahat sa...
Kuch thi usme thirkan ghungroo si...

Kuch tha uske chalne me...
Kuch thi hawa uski chal pe thirakti si...
Kuch tha uske bolne me...
Kuch thi khanak si uske kehne me...

Kuch tha uske haasne me...
Kuch thi chamak si uske chehare me..
Kuch tha uski muskaan me...
Kuch thi dhun si uski haasne me...

Kuch tha uske kehen me...
Kuch thi lagan si uske karne me....
Kuch tha chupa sa usme...
Kuch thi baatein chupi si annkaahi si...

Kuch tha dard sa usme...
Kuch thi baatein kahi dard si...
Kuch tha tuta sa usme..
Kuch thi usme chubhan chubti si...

Kuch tha usme bikhra sa...
Kuch thi ulchhanon me wo ulchhi si...
Kuch tha usme unkaha sa...
Kuch thi khud me hi wo ghutti si...

Kuch tha usme baki sa...
Kuch thi usme shikaan si...
Kuch tha usme honsla sa...
Kuch thi usme himmat baki si...

Kuch tha usme jazba sa...
Kuch thi uski taseer paani si...
Kuch tha usme sar phira sa...
Kuch thi wo deewani si....

Kuch tha usme maza sa..
Kuch thi wo mastaani si...
Kuch tha usme pagalpan sa..
Kuch thi wo shaitani si...

Kuch tha usme umeed sa..
Kuch thi usme aas subha si...
Kuch tha usme haseen sa...
Kuch thi wo khush si...

Kuch tha usme khush sa..
Kuch thi wo bin baat muskurati si...
Kuch tha usme thehra sa...
Kuch thi wo hawa me chalti si...

Kuch tha usme thama sa...
Kuch thi usme gehrai pyar si...
Kuch tha uske maan me...
Kuch thi usme paani si bondh koi...

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

I hold you close..


In the silent space of my heart
 I try and try to look beyond your words...
All I find is your eyes looking back in to mine...
All I see is the reflection of what I never expected...

In the silent space of your presence
I try and try to look beyond those eyes...
All I hear is your eyes screaming
Asking me to hear all that is not being said...

In the silent space of your words
I try and try to find all that you want to say...
All I hear is all that I want to hear...
All I understand is what you never said...

In the silent spaces of the silence
I try and try not to think of anything...
Still your unspoken thoughts echo
Echo that makes me smile and smile for no reason...

In the silent talks of your thoughts
I try and try to find the peace in those eyes...
All I find is thousand questions they ask me...
All I look for is the sign of smile and I find it...

In the silent late night thoughts
I try and try to steal the thoughts from you...
All I find is thoughts and thoughts about me...
All the while..all the night..all the thoughts about me...


In the silent gaze at the moonlit sky
I try and try to find traces of you...
All I find is a heart..a heart that holds all our memories...
All the while..all the way.. I hold you close...